also, I got a job.
6 months ago on November 18, 2011 at 11:21pm
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Title: Idaho
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Last night was spent with an old friend. The high school kind.
It was spent reminiscing and giggling and comparing and sharing and singing.
We laid on the floor of her apartment and swapped songs until the sun came up.
Third Eye Blind. The Avett Brothers. Modest Mouse (not my choice). Neil Young. Josh Ritter.
As the sun began to shine its morning rays over Louisville, we laid on our backs, with our heads close, singing this song and remembering why it is good to be young.
It felt like the end. It felt like the last time. Maybe it is. Maybe my life will change in the next couple of days. Maybe it felt like the end because I am making it an end.
6 months ago on November 13, 2011 at 11:34pm
I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW.
I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW.
6 months ago on November 10, 2011 at 02:05pm
GPOYW
I’ve known for a long time that my mood is dependent on the weather.
On this cloudy, rainy day, the dark is taking root in my spirit.
But the reason there is room for it at all has nothing to do with rain clouds.
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6 months ago on November 09, 2011 at 01:28pm
TODAY.
Today marks 2 months of unemployment.
Today is also the day that I registered with a few temp agencies in the greater Cincinnati area.
I know where I want to live. I know where I want to work. The timing is wrong.
The economy sucks. I don’t have much experience. I don’t even live in the city I want to relocate to. Being jobless is crippling me and destroying me from the inside out. All the things are working against me.
So. New game plan. Move to Cincinnati. Make money doing something anything. Volunteer with organizations I am interested in. Just fucking make it happen.
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Today my depression broke through the other side, Allie Brosh style, and has given me a suit of armor in which I will do all the things.
7 months ago on November 02, 2011 at 10:38pm
This dog, y’all. This dog. I’m officially obsessed with her. She’s my unemployment buddy. For she is also unemployed. And she also only wants to eat, and lay on the floor all day.
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7 months ago on November 01, 2011 at 02:18pm
I’m in Cincinnati for the day.
Doing job things. Not interviews, per se…
But definitely job things.
Moving my feet in the right direction, I guess.
7 months ago on October 28, 2011 at 01:53pm
Growing up is weird.
Unemployment is weird.
Being unemployed while you are trying to be a grown-up is weird, but also really kind of impossible.
I know exactly what I want my life to look like in a year. I just don’t know how to get there from here. The obstacle is finding a job that I love in a field that my heart can make a home in.
I want a home to call my own. Though I am grateful, I am so tired of relying on the infinite kindness of my parents and my mister’s parents. I am tired of having to sacrifice the things I most enjoy, like good, healthy food, and thrift store adventures with my mister.
I want a plan, I want a job, I want to stand on my own two feet and a place to lay my head.
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7 months ago on October 24, 2011 at 06:03pm
I am broken.
I severely underestimated the emotional toll that unemployment would take on me.
I am doing all the things they tell you not to do.
I am absolutely taking it personally. I am letting it get under my skin. I am beginning to doubt my capabilities and talents. It is affecting other aspects of my life.
The persisting cloud of rejection has me confused about things that used to be no-brainers for me. I don’t know where I want to live, I don’t know what I want to do, I don’t know how much I need to earn a year, I don’t know if I want to go back to school or not.
I could get my certification to be a Montessori teacher. I could get my social workers license. I could go to culinary school and start towards my life dream of owning my own restaurant. I could get a waitressing job and focus more of my energy into promoting my mister’s music. I could do all of that in the city. I could do all of that in the country.
I could move into the city. I could move into a house in the areas surrounding Louisville. I could rent a house in rural KY and save all the money. All of the money.
I do know that I cannot keep doing what I am doing. It is detrimental to every facet of my person. But this dark cloud has taken the majority of my motivation into its depths. I doubt my abilities, so how am I supposed to convince someone to give me a job?
I know that it won’t be like this forever. I know that something will come along.
It just really, really, really does not feel like that right now. Really.
I am worn down. I am suffering. I am in need of some change. Some big change.
I am broken.
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7 months ago on October 13, 2011 at 01:50pm
Okay, Universe.
You can send me my job now.
I’m ready to work. And I’m tired of sulking around in the country, brooding over my unemployment.
I’m ready.
Love,
Ari
7 months ago on October 11, 2011 at 09:41am
Unemployment does not look good on me.
I am bored. Like, really, really bored. To occupy myself I’ve been cross stitching a piece to frame for my apartment that I don’t have. I have been spending too much of the money that I should be saving for the apartment that I don’t have. I consistently go just about five hours too long before showering. I am sleeping at two in the morning and rising at noon. I am eating breakfast at one and dinner at eight. No lunches here. It is a bizarre schedule.
I want need a little more structure.
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8 months ago on September 20, 2011 at 12:02am
